In one year I have gone from being in a wheelchair and suffering daily with 70+ symptoms to not using a wheelchair (except for longer distances) while having less than 5 symptoms.
A lot of people ask me how this is possible. My DMs are filled with questions like “who was the doctor that fixed you”, and “what were the supplements that cured your symptoms”
It will probably ruffle a few feathers to say this, but none of these external things were the magic fixes I had hoped they would be. Doctors, supplements, diet changes, avoiding triggers, lowering stress, boundaries (the list goes on) — are all things that have not “fixed” me…
HOWEVER …
Finding the right supplements and healing modalities, and working with the right doctors have been incredible tools that have helped me on my journey back to health after suffering from the devastating effects of fluoroquinolone toxicity. But healing happens when you focus on your mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health. Improve one and the others are likely to improve.
There is a secret unlock I want to share with you that has helped me fast track my healing — which is going within. What does this mean? Things are a lot more basic than we make them out to be. We get too comfortable outsourcing our power, thinking that the next pill or person is going to fix us.
I’ll be real with you…when you’re sick, hearing that “going within” is really about the last thing you want to hear. It takes discipline and commitment to your path to rise above your current circumstances.
It takes silencing the outside noise. It takes allowing yourself to get quiet, allowing yourself the space and time to be uncomfortable in your feelings and emotions, to get quiet so you can start to hear what’s coming through.
This is when the codes that you seek will turn on within you.
As hard as this journey has been for me, and as many days that I have had where I wanted to give up, I have learned to trust that health issues present themselves as a way and opportunity for us to tap into our innate wisdom and learn how to rise above the circumstances at hand. The longer we continue to separate from that wisdom the longer we continue to suffer.
Tap in. But how??
When my physical, mental and emotional health was non-existent, I truly believe that leaning into my spiritual health is what saved me.
I laid there day after day crippled in my own body wondering how I was going to get myself out of this. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I asked my guardian angels for help, giving them permission to intervene, to be given the activation codes I needed to overcome the impossible. I connected with my guides and told them I needed the solutions and resources to be sent my way for complete healing.
I spoke with my cells, I told them I loved them. I have spent day after day, month after month, and now a full year, thanking every organ, cell, muscle, tendon, ligament and bone (and etc) in my body telling them they are doing a phenomenal job and that I love them with my whole being — just as I would speak these words to someone I love.
Over and over again, I’d say, “universe, show me how good it gets.”
I realized that in order to live a totally new life, I would need to let go of the death grip on my identity that I had associated with my old life. So often we want something new but we forget to intentionally make space for what we desire.
I spoke these words over and over again: I am willing to give up my story and identity of being floxed, disabled, victimized and depressed for a daily reality that makes me feel fulfilled, whole and seen. I am willing to trade my suffering, humility and ego in order to help as many people as I can. I promise to show up as the light that I came here to be, and for every day that I am alive and breathing, I promise to use this experience to step into my full power and allow my voice to bring me around the world, sharing joy, community and love through the power of music.
I practice staying focused on this vision.
What are you willing to trade for your illness? When you feel like shit, it’s easy to say “I would do anything to feel good again” but if you’re being real with yourself, the list of things you would be willing to do — to really put your heart and soul into is likely shorter than you might think.
Identify what you are willing to trade for your illness. For your currently reality. Be specific. FEEL this in your being. Make fixating on this feeling your new hobby.
We often over complicated so many things when it comes to our health.
Whatever it is that you’re struggling with, I want you to know that the magic unlock you are looking for exists within you. In order to experience that unlock, the very first step is allowing yourself to get quiet, to be uncomfortable.
Radical change first starts with radical acceptance. I accept where I am at but I don’t accept it as my new, lasting reality and identity.
Everyday for the last year I have been creating the VISION of the life I desire in vivid detail in my mind. Often times I was not able to write or even sing due to the debilitating pain my body was in. But you know what I could do? I could still see. I could still dream. I could still give myself the fighting chance every single day that I woke up with the ability to delusionally dream. To be so delusional in my dreaming day after day after day that it started becoming my reality.
This has not been easy by any means. But many days, it was all I had.
Necessity is truly the mother of invention, right?
Envision it, speak it, sing it, write it. Anything that breaks the vision? Cut it out. Mute it. Silence it, silence them. Create any boundaries necessary. Turn off the distractions. Get uncomfortable. You — are your number one priority.
What is the vision you hold of yourself? Has the new label and issues you associate with become your identity?
Practice shifting your focus to the three ingredients you need to overcome the struggle you’re up against: Gratitude, hope and purpose.
- Gratitude for what was, what is, and what is becoming.
- Hope for surrendering to the goodness you deserve.
- Purpose for the present moment and the bright future ahead to keep you going, especially on the darkest days.
Do this over and over again until it manifests. Step into your power. Take it one day at a time. If I can do it, so can you. Please share your thoughts or questions below! I’m rooting for you.
